Pain threshold, revealing my scars. 

A person can find himself… through submission!


Allowing this makes me a masochist. Enjoying the after effects, the residual pain, reminds of the moment of escape, where pain and the thrill of submission has removed me from everything else. These scars I sought. These scars allow me to feel pain and to enjoy submitting to another.

Yes, this is addictive but am I predisposed, through nature or nurture to seek this out?

At an early age, I wanted to be alone within a quiet space, I wanted to escape, I kept myself in a cupboard to see how it felt. The dark, the peace, the safety I found needed no one. Not knowing love, I escaped. Pain and fear were a certainty within a family where I grew and where I sought escape.

Nature or nurture? My response to what happened is my own.

My mind and body reacted to threat, a threat that felt inescapable and…

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About dave94015

interested in alternative relationships, visual artist, erotic romance writer and reviewer of erotica, drug rehab clinic intern - mid 20's
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