some people will try #polyamory…but eventually find #monogamy
It’s not something I ever considered for myself before. I was always a jealous, though in my mid-twenties I finally started becoming more secure with myself and my sexuality to calm the beast. Maybe it’s because I dated guys that I always figured I would be the hottest they could get, I knew they would choose me over anyone else who gave them attention. It’s a vain and egotistical way to defeat it, but I defeated it anyway.
Plus, I realized that my jealousy of women often coincided with my attraction to them. It’s why I always feel so awkward around beautiful women. I am awkward around attractive men, to be sure, but I am confident enough and know the dance well enough to hold a conversation. But with women, it was always an odd mixture of desire and hatred. I hated them for being prettier than me, while also wanting…
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